Monday, April 6, 2015

Tri completely changed my life

Tri Changed My life

People say that, and sure it might be true in one or two ways.  For me, it turned the whole damn thing upside down.  I met two of my closest friends through tri, ladies that should probably be sisters- you know who you are.  The laughs, the encouragement, the love, yeah- they are awesome.  Last season was a turning point, a holy cow, I love this moment.  A, this makes me a better person, a nicer person, a calmer person moment.  I looked forward to this year, this season, the races, the people, the training, the therapy. 

For those of you that don't know, tri changed my life in a way I never dreamed 2 months ago.  I wanted to  sign up for a race... but dear God if I'm pregnant, I don't want to waste my money.  Pee on a stick... holy... wow!  Here we go, whole 'nother sort of ride.  We were psyched, we couldn't have been happier.  I calculated.  Instead of Racing Maryland, I'd be having a baby.  This was awesome.  Life couldn't be better.   I figured I would try to still race, train, short local stuff, no stress.  Then, life changed again.  I had a ruptured ectopic pregnancy.  I bled into my belly until I nearly passed out.  No risk factors.  No reason.  No explanation.  Emergency surgery and a depth of hole that I mentally couldn't climb out of.

Until I was cleared to train and tri.  Thank God.  I felt like me again.  I felt like I was a person, albeit sad, but functional.  My yards were my therapy.  I sweat out my loss.  I pounded out my frustration.  This was how I would recover, I would Tri.  About 5 seconds later I was signed up for Lake Placid.  I had a goal, and it was a close one.  Only a few months away.  It was time to crank.  Time to mark the workouts on the calendar.  Yep.  I could do this.

I'm still sad.  I still have bad days, I still have no understanding of this whole thing, but then I tri.  Then I meet fellow triathletes and aspirating incredible athletes.  I meet people that push me hard and encourage me through.  I meet swimmers who make me work harder than I have since college.  I gain a slew of instantaneous friends, lanemates, bike-buddies, run-crazies all because of this incredible sport.  All because we tri.  I feel like life is continuing, and that everything has its place and that I can laugh again.... laugh hard again, all because I tri.



Tri changed my life- I love every second.