Inspiration

Some days are better than others.  Some you wake with a fire under your you know what, and some days you are lucky to have a passing thought of your goal throughout the course of the day.  Myself, I have found there have been far more of the latter than the former.  Not good.  Most early wake up calls have been nixed by the thought of another two hours in bed.  Most afternoons have been sucked up by the couch and a bad tv show.  Every part of my day in between those two moments is no more dedicated to my race and myself than the beginning or the end.  From a crummy lunch, to a lazy attitude, I'm not on the glorious road to Ironman that I imagined.  Instead I am on a rocky side road and am stuck in some sort of pothole I think.

This leads me to wonder, why do this?  It isn't just the goal, it is the journey, who it makes me, who I become during this.... wait.... I'm going to change?  There are two camps on this, one that says that you will never be the same after an Ironman, one that says that the race doesn't change you at all.  Which is it?  My take is that I have this need to do the race because of who I am deep down inside, and that this drive has always been there (just ask my family and my husband, I'm confident they will confirm.)  The journey to the race though- I think that is what truly changes you, or maybe just molds you into the person that you are meant to be.

This starts with getting out of bed for that early morning workout.  I suppose there are some people that just pop out of bed with the race in their head being enough.  Then there are the pros who are just getting up and going to work (JEALOUS!)  Meanwhile, I have the alarm go off and think, why?!  So many mornings I have no answer, or I ignore it.

In the beginning of all of this I said I would race for St. Jude's kids, and I am set up to do that!  Check out my website.  www.heroes.stjude.org/krisironmantexas  This certainly adds a bit of fuel to the fire, to know how hard kids are fighting, I certainly can do that little work out.

Then I have books, multitudes of them, that I keep reading, crying, and reading some more.  Written by pro's, written about average Joes, telling their stories, their journey.  Well, sheesh, if they can do it, so can I right?

Finally, today I stumbled upon perhaps my most important inspiration and motivation... Me!  Already on this journey I have learned so much about myself, about eating, working out, my job, my marriage, my temper, and the balance of it all.  So, as I balance myself, my chi, my something, tell me:  What is your inspiration?  What gets you rolling?


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