I wouldn't want to be anywhere else

How often is this actually true?  We spend our days wishing for better, for different, wishing we didn't have to be at work, or commuting, or at the doctor's office, in a meeting, waiting in line at the grocery store.  We don't want to be any of these places- ever.  And when we are suffering through a workout, or struggling with something, well, we don't want to be there either.... oh boy, are we high maintenance or what?!

And by we, I of course mean me.  Seriously, we spend our days wishing we were someone else, something else, or plain old somewhere else.  While spending multiple hours in my dining room over the past few weeks, I developed a mantra.  "I wouldn't want to be anywhere else."  It was born from a statement that I heard someone make amidst an Ironman race.  Walking on the run course, this young lady grinned at the camera and said, "I wouldn't want to be anywhere else!"  Mind over matter, and its the truth.  Completing this race, checking off my training sessions, I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. 

Something has come to my realization with all this positive thinking.  I am going to do another Ironman.  Prior to right this second, I have always said, "I'm not sure" when people ask if I will do another after Texas.  I wanted to see how this one went, and see if I hated it.  I loved the half distance so much, I didn't know if I would want to do a full more than once.  Now I know- I have to do another one.  I have to, because my training for this one has been a joke at best.  Life has gotten in the way, lack of motivation and structure, indoor training and EXCUSES have all lead me to a point when I simply aim to finish.  In theory, that has been my goal all along, "I just want to finish." 

This is actually true.  I will be so content and happy with myself if I can drag myself across the finish line in one piece.  The bigger truth is though, that I will always wonder, "what if I had trained better? what if I could have ridden outside more? what if the planets aligned perfectly?"  I have learned a  lot in this experience, and I haven't even raced yet.  In fact, I feel like I have bobbled much of my training.  Knowing that, I know that Texas will be a once in a lifetime experience that I will need to repeat at least once, because, "what if?"  And really, because I owe it to myself. 

So going forward, there is no where I would rather be, and I thank all of you for supporting me along the way!